Saying farewell to two people...

In the past three days I had wish farewell to two people I know. First is my Choice Weekend friend Joyce (seem like my Choice group friends going away and the group is becoming lesser and lesser, God please help that we keep in touch. I don’t know why is there a slight fear in me that I’m feeling now… is it because good friends are hard to find?). She got a job in Perth Australia.

Second person is my Aikido assistant instructor Sylvan. He has been a kind and dedicated instructor. He is leaving for Spain to do his MBA. Drop by Serangoon CC last evening to wish him farewell (even when my toe still hurt… and it might be my last visit to the Aikido class). He brought some cake and drinks for us.

Both will leave in less then a week time. God I pray and ask that you guide and protect them where they are.

Fixing up a DIY shelf

Decided to buy and fix up a DIY wooden shelf after seeing my room getting more and more messy with the books. Took about two hours to fix it up. Proud to have done it.

Do you have any marriage plans?

Recently an oversea friend emails me and talked about fears of getting married. She says that she is not ready and that there are some things that she wants to pursue before she gets tied down with marriage and later maybe children. And I was put to the same question by her of whether I have any marriage plans and below was what my reply without much thinking:

As for me… might be same as you… First, I’m planning to do a career change so it might not be easy for me to enter a relationship at this point of time. Second, I had some feelings towards one or two girls but never dated or courted any girls before. Maybe it is God’s way of telling me I’m not ready also and want me to live longer as a single to learn more about love and serving him as a single before entering into any relationship.

Quite an interesting reply… Learning a bout love and serving as a single. I guess that is what I’m doing and will continue doing.

Team Sehati BBQ

After a day and a morning of diarrhea my stomach was more at peace with me (but a bit vulnerable) to allow me to attend my mission team, team Sehati’s (one heart) BBQ at East Coast Park last Saturday.














It was good meeting up with my old Banda Aceh house building mission teammates (and also sad to hear today that the tsunami hit Indonesia again). Due to my week stomach I could not eat much and touch spicy stuff and most of the BBQ stuff.

Matt my mission trip roommate brought his whole family (3 kids + wife + maid) which he calls the “basketball team”. Philip (from another mission team) also brought his family. Adrian was the first one to come. And surprise surprise… some of the Habitat for Humanity staff(the NGO that work with to organize the mission to Aceh) was at our neighbour BBQ pit.

Over all it was a good BBQ although my tummy off and on will seem to act up.

Some photos from Kluang

Met Liz (chocolate lover) and Allen on the train back to Kluang.

Dad showing an abandon bee hive that was in an abandon house near our place.

What is happening to me God?

I really do not know what is happening to me. Lately I have been on MC for a week and stuck at home most of the time. So if I’m not surfing the net I’ll be watching a movie… other then that I’ll try to read a book. But there is a certain restless in me asking me to resign from my current job and also off & on will end up thinking of the girl that I’m interested. I guess it is driving me crazy. God please help… I need a way out.

This morning I went for the check up on my little toe and the doctor say I need about 6 weeks for the fracture to recover and mention to give me a month MC. I really do not know what happen at that point and the thought “I need to get back to work” just flash through my mind. So I asked the doctor to give me MC till end of this week and I’ll give a shot at going back to work to do some light work. Later I sat outside the clinic alone and thought through what had happen. It just hit me… I’m scared God. I guess I wanted to keep myself busy so that I’ll not think about the calling of resigning and also thinking or feel about the feelings that I have toward the girl that I’m interested in.

God I really do not know how to handle it. God I really do not know why this call of resigning?… is it that you want me to start again somewhere else or in something else? Why this afternoon instead of going to Sim Lim Square I ended up at Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts (NAFA)?

God what do you want me to learn from these feelings that I have for the girl that I’m interested in… (I’m aware of it and I always tell my self to let go)? Years back in Australia I fell for an Indonesian girl… and now I fall for another Indonesian girl… what or why is this God? There are so many pretty Singapore girls that I know… why her God… why her God? God I really do not know your plan…but help me to continue to trust in You. Maybe I will talk to an older guy or a person more experience on this matter…

I’m not sure I have lost my vision… No matter what happen let me have the joy in serving you. Thanks again for revealing to me on the below verse:

“Not that I have already obtained this or have already reached the goal; but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own. Beloved, I do not consider that I have made it my own; but this one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the heavenly call of God in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3:12-14

Thanks God and St. Paul of reminding me to press on.
Thank you for telling me that Jesus has made me his own
Help me to invest myself in the race that matters most...(life priorities)
Help me to pray to you… Help me to worship you… and help me to be in communion with you God.

Good night God.

Deo Gratias