Feelings of being turn down

Recently I was ask to write about “What sex is all about?”. There was a part where I talk about approaching a friend of my and asking her whether she would consider a “more than friend” type of relationship with me. And was turn down and agree to be just friends.

The workshoppers asked me to focus or write more on the feelings of being turn down and the struggle and challenge I face when moving forward.

When I was turn down, part of me felt sad. I guess this was due to “kena rejected” type of feeling and maybe also because it did not turn out as what I had wanted to.

I guess the challenge that I face was that I still have (more than friend type of) feelings for her and we had agree that we will remain just as friends. So first, I had to be aware of my feelings toward her and accept it (not to runaway from it). Second is that I’ll off and on have strong feeling towards her and I have to maintain our good friendship as we had agreed. So I guess it is kind of a challenge or struggle that one will face.

As I struggle with these feelings or that I wish I had not these feelings at times, I guess it is also a good thing that God gave us feelings (otherwise there will not be any romance or marriage). I guess I have to bring God into the picture. Be it single or couple or married… God is always in the relationship (like an invincible 3rd person). And I guess I have to lift up my feelings to God and trust in Him and seek Him as I journey on.